Thursday, December 11, 2025

A Mariners Memoir 2026



It has been a year since my last post.

January 22 2025

This past year has been about my journey

 not an uncommon one for 

someone my age.

76 

My personal journey has felt more like a sea voyage, that I am afloat, sometimes adrift,

as on a ship, the sails catching the winds of... as my doctor prefaced with.....

" age related" health issues.

.............................


..............................



THE ANCIENT MARINER

poem



" You are where you are supposed to be....and it is too soon."...

I first heard this quote in a film by the wise old character to the middle-aged man in crisis.

This sounded like me, as a child, when I was unable to take hold of my life's events.

 filled with trauma and neglect. I was only given the choice to survive or not.

 This year began with a new diagnosis beyond the anxious, depressive, manic or suicidal person that would designate which meds I was prescribed.

I have lived long enough to have a treatment and new diagnosis that will address the childhood pain and begin the road to my own authentic self at 76

...........................

This is where I can alter the quote to read .....

"I am where I am supposed to be ....and it's not too late."

With this new treatment and recovery, I have been able face the five surgeries I have successfully 

completed. They include two new hips, new lenses in both eyes and a new right knee. 

My 1949 model reached the end of the warranty, and I have a new model 2025!

I am grateful it was not too late to heal my mind and body together, to live out my remaining years as fearless as possible.

......................................

This quote has now evolved again to read......

"I am where I am supposed to be......and I am right on time"...


.


This is my New Years 2026 wish for all to "be" present in your life and with the ones

you love. To be kind to all, no matter what.

AMEN





 

 

Wednesday, January 22, 2025

New Years Resolution 2025

 



All Is One




There is only one resolution for me.

GRATEFULNESS

In a world of turmoil, with war and suffering, I am practicing
the way I can acknowledge what is happening in the world, from my
safe place, in a small apartment on the Olympic PenĂ­nsula
of Washinton State USA.

A simple daily statement, on my new 2025 calendar of gratefulness for one 
thing, starts my day and helps my view for the coming days events. Born a "Baby Boomer"
[those born after WWII from 1946-1965] from parents seeking the
American Dream in a peaceful world. My life began with all the hopes and dreams for a world with opportunity for everyone to thrive.
A government program helped many buy their first homes.
My father a veteran of WWII, was eligible for this blessing to raise his family.
These were my beginnings in the USA.

I grew up with high expectations for my life.

I am 75, in a wheelchair now, as I sit writing today, advanced arthritis, constant pain
throughout the day and night. Accepting my own suffering each day is a struggle, compounded by lack of medical services in all parts of the country.
Life in the USA began full of hope and opportunity, even as a woman, I saw the potential 
for me to thrive in a man's world. It has been a life of many battles, some won, some lost, still lost to many today.
Although there has been many advancements, equality, especially in healthcare, yet it is hindered by a lack of access. Sounds more like a third world country.

Reality today is now including the world I live in, as a member
of a global community. 
The wars, discrimination, refugees, suffering, poverty, hunger 
and death is overwhelming
to me in 2025. 
My country, as in many others, refugees flee for safety and justice.
USA is also rejecting them, out of a fear of loss for own safety and fragile economic futures.

How can I assist those?
Make a difference?

I must find a way each day in my small world. A way to give
what I can spare.
I am, in my community, able to see those each day that cross my path and
reach out to them.
This is my gratefulness in action.
Day by day my gratefulness grows as I can see me,
as a person, engaged in my world.
And now I am experiencing others reaching out to me with
a "Hello",
 " Can I open the door for you?"
" How are you doing today?"
"Nice to see you today"



CHANGE THE WORLD

Stickers I have been giving to those who have chosen to reach out to me.
I continue to do this for 2025.
My gratefulness is showing me the world's reality is NOT just that of a naive child
that sees only a world free of wars and suffering and injustice. There are moments when a glimmer
of an experience lightens up my surroundings. Just as the sun breaks through the numerous grey days in the NW of these states.


Port Angeles Wa





THIS IS MY PRAYER AS AN ADULT.

I continue to be inspired by the prayers in the song by 
ColdPlay "We Pray" 
and 'BARAYE" by Iranian song writer about freedom in Iran.



"We Pray Baraye"

My first form of expression is in painting and now I begin a painting of
my prayers, written, as a daily mantra, for all my wishes for the world and for myself.

PEACE OF MIND
PEACE OF HEART
PEACE OF BODY
PEACE FOR ALL OF OUR SOULS




"No Mud, No Lilies"
Thich Nhat Hanh, Buddhist Teacher

I am learning to embrace it all.




Beverlee Lawson Websterville Vt

A dear friend of almost 30 years, she holds true to the 
revolutionary spirit of founding fathers of the 
United States of America.
As I dwell, sometimes, in my own misery and feel helpless and hopeless for my own condition,
she reminds me we are all living lives that include pain and suffering. Often unknown about people
around us.
" Suck it up!"
" One day at a time!"
As soon as I hear it my sense of joy and sense of humor returns. The blessings of friends.
I am not alone on this humankind journey, on this "Pale Blue Dot" for my limited time.

Embrace each day.

Thanks Bev


P.S. I am unsure of what the next 4 years will hold for the most vulnerable in this
country and the world under the new government leaders. What quality of life  will it lead to...? 
I will continue to write about it and share to anyone about "What's love got to do with it".